God is SO good!

It's 3:45 in the morning and I haven't slept yet. I've been on a crazy high adrenaline rush all night. Want to know why? :) Did you think you had a choice? hehe

So the past couple of weeks I've been job hunting. I've applied at a few different places and was praying for the right opportunity. On Monday I ran into a couple that I knew from my old church and casually said that I was looking for a job. The guy got disappointed and said that he'd just hired someone at his company and if he would've known..yada yada. I didn't think anything of it until he called me the next day and told me that the lady he had hired decided she didn't want the job and wanted to know if I was interested! Of course I jumped at the thought and on Wednesday I had an interview with him and was offered the job and a couple days to decide. Salary wasn't talked about it and it was the deciding factor since I'll be on my own in the next few months and had to make sure I could afford it. Anyway, long story short (or trying here), I talked to my future boss today and he told me my salary...it was more then I expected!! Praise God!!

I'm excited and awake and exhausted and...hungry! It's about that time to raid the fridge :)

Night all!

Amazing Weekend!

Sunglasses Models (except me, cause I couldn't keep a straight face)

Nick and I dancing at the mall

I had the best weekend! After poker night and my relaxing Saturday an amazing Sunday was in order right? Definitley! Church was awesome, the worship and teaching was good, and the time spent with friends was just as nice. After church a group of us (think 15) decided to go to Olive Garden for lunch...two and a half hours later we left full, broke and feeling spontaneous! Then we realized that it's hard to be spontaneous in Flag, so we settled for the mall. From the pics above you can see the craziness that ensued (I'm feeling very smart today lol) and I have the feeling I used that word wrong and I'm sure mom will let me know if I did.

Until tomorrow!!

Obligations...

No pressure on posting *coughmomcough* any blogs, it's all good right? lol

It's a beautifully chilly afternoon! Actually it's really windy and it's taking away from the beautifullness...don't say a word about my..word. Wow, I just woke up. Yes, Saturday afternoon naps are amazing! My best friend and have spent most of the afternoon watching Gilmore Girls and laughing, but only after meeting a friend at Starbucks. Now I currently can't breathe because Meg just painted her nails and I'm suffocating!! lol.

Yesterday I had my first real experience at a casino night..which was free. Me, Meg and Nick (aw, good friend) went and did better then we thought we would. Nick made it to the final table for Texas Hold Em. Good thing he didn't win, the gift certificate to the Bellagio in Vegas would've been a nice bday present, since I could easily persuade him to give it to me, ha yeah right. But all in all it was a very enjoyable night and I would not pay to play with Funny Money again!

Meg w/ some of her "winnings"

My bestie :) and I

Lacking the creativity for a good title :)

I'm currently listening to a new take on 'O Holy Night' and it's confusing me! But I guess watching Gilmore Girls at the same time could add to the confusion...

It's hard to believe it's October already! But I love it, it's my favorite time of year. Watching the leaves change outside my window makes me smile and the chilliness in the air is perfection. I love wearing sweaters and scarves and beanies. Oh oh and the smell of snow. Ah I'm so happy right now. I have an amazing family, awesome friends and a God that is merciful and loving.

I am blessed.

:)

We Are Family!

My Beautiful Gramies and I

Gramies, me, Aunt Mary Jane and Aunt Janie
(See where I get my height from?)

And last, but not least, my amazing parents and best friends :)

Don't yell at me! I know that it's been a looong time since I last blogged and I have no excuses. Slap my wrist and forgive me please :)

Today was a pretty weird day. I had a bit of a breakdown and through my tears I started crying out to God. It turned into a lot of questions and one answer..but I'll get to that in a minute. Have you ever tried to comprehend why Jesus did what He did for us? I mean, really, He chose to die for us; for me, for you. I could go very deep in all of this but I'm trying to keep it a little simpler, as hard as it is right now. God knew what I would do before I was born. He knew what choices I would make. He knew that I would make bad decisions and choose the wrong path completely and then He knew when I would turn around and come home, earnestly seeking His help and forgiveness (think prodigal son). Yet, in all of this, He still chose to die for me. I started thinking about it like an actual marriage. If I was married and chose to cheat on my husband over and over and over again, obviously after countless times my husband wouldn't want to be apart of it anymore. He would most likely divorce me and, hopefully, forgive me, but we wouldn't stay together. So how is it that the God of the universe, Who knew every choice that I would make and every time I would hurt Him, still die for me? My mind cannot wrap around this thought and I know that I'm overthinking all of this. It wasn't meant to be complicated and yet we overcomplicate it.

So, through my tears and questions I heard the Father, the Almighty, the Lover of my soul say a very simple thing in answer to my question of why and how......

Because I love you.

Wow.