Tuesday, April 22, 2008


Wow, it's been awhile since I've blogged. Life's been pretty hectic at the moment. But...I'm finally happy again. I know that sounds so cliche, yet there's really no other way to say it. I am truly happy right now. I'm finally at peace with life and I know that God has everything under control. Yes, I'm sure there will be hard times, heck, I know there will be! But I'm holding fast the promise that He will "never leave me or forsake me." What a great thing to know for sure. No matter what happens, He is faithful. He will never stop loving us. Wow!! Even when we fall down, even when we break His heart, He's still there. That just blows my mind! I don't even know what else to say right now, I'm still feasting off of new revelation.

Friday, April 4, 2008

So I really want to post something that makes people smile or laugh or something. But, I'm sorry to say, I really don't have it in me right now. There is so much on my heart and mind that I'm struggling just to stay afloat. I wish I could just see a small glimpse into the future so that I could be assured that everything is going to be ok. That there is a light at the end of this tunnel.

Welcome to my life.

Are there changes? Yes
Is there tears? Yes.
Is there hurt? Yes.
Is there a faithful God who will never leave? Yes.

And that is all I can hold on to.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Is it ever going to get better?

That is my question of the day, or the week. I know the answer is probably yes, someday it will. But I don't feel that right now. I feel like I've hit a brick wall and it's as far as I can go right now. I feel like I've hit rock bottom. And just when it seems like things are looking up, another attack hits. I don't know how much longer I can fight this.

"I'm not alright. I'm broken inside, broken inside."