Monday, March 31, 2008

Gotta love weddings

I was in Phoenix this past weekend for my uncles wedding and it was amazing! Such a perfect love story. My uncle is divorced and has three kids. My new aunt also has three kids. They were all in the wedding party and at a certain part of the ceremony they had a personal communion. It was just a really awesome way of uniting the family. There were about ten of my family from Colorado who came up and it made it so much fun! It's always so hard to say goodbye though, moreso for my mom.

:) I know this is short, but I can't think right now.


Monday, March 24, 2008


You gotta love them right? Well honestly usually I don't love them...but hate is too strong of a word. And according to my little sister, it's also a cuss word, lol. My emotions have varied quite a bit the past few months. I'll be great, happy, laughing, then all of the sudden a memory pops up and next thing I know I'm on the verge of tears. I can't even describe how I'm feeling right now. It seems like there's just a solemness in my house. We all know what the inevitable is, but we keep trying to think that it's going to change. The only thing we can hold on to is knowing that God is still on the throne. He is still in control. He sees our hurt and our tears. He knows. He has a plan and someday when I look back on this, I'll see why things happened the way they did. A chapter in my life is coming to an end and I'm fighting so hard to stop it. I know that one day I'll just let go completely and the next chapter will start. I hope that day is soon.
Emotions. They're all apart of life and they're usually a good thing. We just have to look at them differently.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

New Blog

I figured maybe I should start a blog that is a little less personal than my last one. The other one turned into more of a journal...a journal that I don't prefer anyone reads, lol.

Anyway, my parents both have blogs, how weird is that? They're coming into the blogger society quite nicely. My mom knows more about it than I do...who knew? lol.

Life definitely isn't the greatest right now, but I know that God has everything under control. If someone would've told me, a year ago, that I would be in this place right now, I would've laughed. I never thought I would have to make such life changing decisions. I thought I was pretty settled in where I needed to be, but I was wrong. Now everything that I've ever known is gone. Including most of my friends, my church and pretty much my identity. I've never known anything else and it feels like life has just been flipped upside down. I'll admit I'm scared, yet I'm also excited. God has a perfect plan and even though I can't see the end of this, I know it's all going to be ok.

My grandma called me tonight just to talk and encourage me. The one thing she kept saying that definitely stuck in my head was..."This too shall pass." That's all I can hold onto right now.