Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Seasons

Reality is setting in slowly and I'm having serious mixed emotions about it. I'm excited for my family, I think this is what they need to do, they deserve it. But I'm sad that I won't be able to see them as often as I do. I won't be able to stop by the house and watch Mash with them. Wednesday night dinners won't exist anymore.

The harder thing is that I don't know if we'll ever live in the same state. I can't say that for sure because God only knows what will happen. But as of right now I can't go, not for at least a year and even then I may not be ready to leave my life here. Or heck, I could be married, but Grace says if I meet a guy it'll take him years to "repose" to me. Haha that's very comforting Grace, thank you.

Mom keeps saying that in a year we'll look back and see how God orchestrated everything. I believe that wholeheartedly. It's going to be hard, probably harder then I can think about right now, but eventually it'll get easier.

Here's to new seasons :)

(And remember Mom, I'll be ok)

3 comments:

Brenda said...

I know you will! We all will. And of course we'll talk every.single.day, right? And send each other pictures. It's all going to be fine. And you'll do what the Lord leads you to do no matter where or when that will be. And someday soon you'll have a man wooing you and then he'll 'repose' and who knows from there. Maybe a grandbaby? ;)
We just won't say goodbye ok?
I love you and I'm so proud of you!

Amber said...

You know your always welcome and have a place to stay if you ever wanted to come out here too.

jennifer said...

I didn't know you had a blog Chelsie. I feel like I know you - sort of - because I read Brenda's blog. She is a funny and Godly woman but I know I don't have to tell YOU that.

I didn't realize when I first read your Mom's post about CO that you wouldn't be going. I just figured that out by reading her latest post. I will pray for ALL of you.

Sometimes I can't believe how much life has changed since I was twenty years old and getting married. I had no idea that I wouldn't live in my hometown again or that I would wind up living so far away from my parents.

But I can look back and see the hand of God so clearly in my past, how the distance from my folks was actually the BEST thing for me and my marriage, how God truly worked things out for the good.

I am sorry that this comment is so bloomin' long. I just understand how it feels to face changes and want you to know that I will pray for you and your family.

Be blessed.

Jennifer